I’ve liked you for 4 YEARS and you’ve never acknowledged it. People say you act flirty around me, but I don’t get it. It’s been 4 years! I love being friends with you but I don’t want to be JUST friends with you. This isn’t fair.

i used to have a cutting problem until halfway through my relationship with jeremy. jeremy told me to cut myself take a pic and send it to him because he taunted me&called me a liar so he wanted proof. i sent him a picture and he got me to stop cutting myself after that incident. my friends all hated jeremy and pressured me into breaking up with him/erasing him from my life. i gave in to this pressure, and jeremy got pissed that i left him. he sent the picture of me cutting around the whole school and i felt beyond betrayed. the worst part is, this happened two years ago and i still love him. i wish i could have this bastard back, that year with him was the best/worst part of my life. i need him back, but i can never tell him.

I really like you. Worst part is, you’re already into someone else. I pretend it doesn’t really matter to me, but it does a lot.

Is it normal to be afraid of your own mind? To be afraid of your own curiosity? To wonder if someday you won’t be able to control an impulse that would make you feel something you know will be painful?

i think i might love you, or the idea of you. i’m kicking myself for letting you go, for not telling you how i really felt. maybe it’s better this way, i’m supposed to grow or something. but you could have been it. instead, i’m crossed between the perfect guy and a guy who has everything wrong for me. and this one or that one. i’ll admit it—i need someone. but every guy, these two or any of the others, has not missed me or loved me except for one. the biggest jerk of them all. and people wonder why i’m insecure.